Chapter 05

Chapter 5


"wa-wait a second. you're saying Sumalee is Phaibun's ex-girlfriend and she was originally asked by Phaibun to get married. she first accept the engagement but ended the engagement eventually...?", Daeng still couldn't hardly believe that the rumored guy that Sumalee dated for years is none other than but Phaibun, Ying's husband.

Simla: how did you found this out, Tida? you're not trying to make stories, right... just because you're mad with Sumalee?
Tida: im not making any stories. what between me and Sumalee has nothing to do about this news. in fact, Kaew's the one who told me...


*flashback*
Tida entered Kaew's office and passed her designs to him for the event that was assigned to her. Kaew was very satisfied with her work, he just don't know what Sumalee's up to.

Kaew: Tida, you have nothing to worry about this project. this is your project and im sure our clients will definitely like it.
Tida: thanks... can i be the one to pick the model? i just don't want Daeng to do it, im really sure he would pick her. (she's referring to Kaew's cousin, Sumalee.)
Kaew: oh... yeah... sure, sure. actually, i also wanted to apologized for what happened between you two. Sumalee's not in the state of condition.
Tida: what do you mean?
Kaew: i dont know... after she met Phaibun again. i dont think she'll concentrate to her work even if she just came back- oh, my... im not going to say it any longer-
Tida: you've started already. why dont you just tell me. you know we keep secrets.
Kaew: and if i will tell you, you'll surely tell the others-
Tida: no... no... i'll keep my mouth shut. just tell me so i will know how i can stand her behavior.
Kaew: okay... but if you will tell this to others, i will surely reveal your darkest secret.
Tida: NO. NO. it's a promise i'll keep my mouth shut about this.


Kaew then told her about the real score between Phaibun and Sumalee. even Tida wouldn't hardly believe about this, there's no conclusion at this state yet. either Phaibun or Sumalee both haven't recovered from their past.


"does Ying knew about this yet?", Simla asked and Daeng still figuring out about the blind items he had read before about Sumalee, connecting about this latest news. Tida already have plans if ever Sumalee would step on her again, she wanted Kaew to forgive her if she'll ever reveal this secret.

"do you think Phaibun still loves Sumalee? i mean he was mad at her... but don't you think he still loves her?", Daeng said.

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the two brothers were enjoying each other's company, while Mae and Ying were in the kitchen getting the ready for the dinner. Ying couldn't concentrate from slicing the carrots, while Mae washed the other veggies in the sink. Mae noticed how Ying's being uncomfortable, admittedly that she's not a kitchen person who do all these stuff.

Mae: do you need my help?
Ying: uh... ye-yeah... mmm... sure. i- i just couldn't-
Mae: it's okay. i was like you before, i dont really know how to cook. but when i met Thor, i just started to practice.
Ying: i see... how-how did you met him, anyway?
Mae: actually, let's say it was just one-click and we started things not very smooth. we actually fight a lot and we thought we dont have in common, however, we both realize what we had was more than that. actually, he talks about you a lot when the time we're getting to know each other.
Ying: really?
Mae: yeah, i mean... he said you were his childhood friend and that both of your families were really close. at first, i thought he was trying to use that to make me jealous. (Ying accidentally slid the knife to her finger and got wounded.) oh, my- are you alright!?!
Ying: ye-yeah, im fine... don't worry. (she washed her wound.)
Mae: let me do that...
Ying: tha-thanks... anyhow, how come you said that he uses me to make you jealous?
Mae: oh... because he talks you a lot, but then... he said that you're like a sister to him and i was kinda relief when he said that... (Ying smiled... a sarcastic one. hope she was not that too obvious.) he said that you belonged to someone else.
Ying: to someone else?
Mae: yeah, and when i finally got the chance to meet Phaibun... that's how i got what he said that you belonged to someone else.
Ying: you mean... i belonged to Phaibun?
Mae: yeah... i was actually kinda rooting for you all these years, even though Phaibun has someone else that time. and i am happy that he still end up with you.
Ying: i dont understand, i dont have communication with Phaibun eversince he went to the States and-


she wasn't finish but Thor came in to join them. "what are you two cookin' for dinner?", he then wrapped his arms to Mae's waist. he started to kiss her forehead, down to her nose... and okay, why they're doing it infront of her, anyway?

Mae: hun, you're drunk already...
Thor: no, im not... we are just chatting while watching tv.
Mae: stop drinking now, we still have our dinner.
Ying: you're right... i think, im gonna go to my room first. im gonna get some bandage.


they just watched her go and Ying went to bathroom, surprisingly Phaibun just came out. "what are you doing in my bathroom?", she asked.

Phaibun: in your bathroom? there's only one bathroom here in this pad... wait, what happened to your finger? (he saw it and kept bleeding.)
Ying: this is nothing. get out of my way, im gonna get-


before she could end it, Phaibun grabbed her hand and sucked her wounded index finger. to prevent from bleeding. Ying just couldn't stop staring from what he did and the warmth of his mouth brought some electrifying down to her senses, she could feel sucking her whole blood out of her.

the next thing happened, he stopped suckling it and let her go. though she remained standing to her position and watched him go back to the bathroom, as he got out he had the bandage with him. he wrap it gently to her finger. "there you go...", he whispered.

she dont know what she will say next to him, but she just stood silently and both their eyes locked each other. slowly, they closer to each other, just inches away as she knows what's gonna happened next. she certainly don't understand to herself why she always end up ending this way with him. they don't get along, but she like this weird feeling she always felt with him.

the kiss that happened twice and it's going to happen again. she knows that she's going to feel the same thing again when he kissed her the last time. she wanted to feel it again.

closer... and closer...


"Phai! Pet's here!!!", Thor called from outside. both of them stayed away from each other as they got alarmed from Thor's voice. awhile ago, their eyes locked onto each other's stare, but now, they couldn't look at each other anymore. the atmosphere just turned awkward.

Phaibun went ahead as he was called out. meanwhile, Ying left inside of her room... she didn't know what to think or to say. why does she feels that Phaibun is the right that kind of wrong.

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Ying was asked to call out her friends and join them for dinner, as she called them... they were all busy. she felt so guilty because she's supposed to be with them at this hour to finish the preparation, especially that she's the designer for this event.

as they had dinner, Mae and Ying joined the drinking party with the boys. but Mae actually want to pay attention on Thor's drink, she dont want him to get drunk as he's still gonna drive. Pet and Phaibun were just discussing about sports, later the topic went to Thor and Mae of they met and how Phaibun feels when accepting Mae in their family as well.

even Phaibun likes Mae for Thor a lot. he had time to get to know her and she's the only girl he's rooting for his brother, Ying wondered if she was that girl... would he root for her for his brother? what would be like if her and Thor, then Mae and Phaibun? it seems like she couldn't imagine Mae to be his type. now, it questioned her if what are Phaibun's taste for women...

to end the story of this party, its a series of a brokenhearted Ying. she had her realization after hanging out with these people, especially with Thor. she would never be his type and he will always be the little sister for him. she's raising her white flag and waving it to the highest level.

hours later...

the party's over, Pet and the couple were about to go home. Ying bring all the glasses from living room to kitchen, even though she's kinda drunk... she don't want to wake up the next day that whole pad is being messy.

Phaibun: Ying, you go ahead now and sleep. just leave it there...
Ying: but i don't want wake up tomorrow and see all these stuff here.
Phaibun: don't worry, i'll fix that tomorrow. just leave it there, you still have work tomorrow.
Ying: no... i will- (the next thing happened.)
Phaibun: let me help you then, so we can finish right away... (he was at her back.)


she turn around and didn't mean to be locked against his body as she was reclining from the kitchen counter. is as if their bodies always has magnet in them. and here she goes again, not knowing what to do. their stare and exchanging each other's breathe. what happened awhile ago... is the continuation of what they're about to do.

no one's there to interrupt them, just the two of them all alone.

slowly Phaibun makes his move to her as he was about to kiss her... when she said "im sleepy... i... i dont think, i can-", he thought she was just a little drunk and still can handle herself. but now, she's reclining to his chest and sleepy.

he carried her until he reaches her room, he lay her down to her bed and watches her sleeping peacefully. not the first time as he watches her sleeping peacefully, he likes to watch her the way she sleeps... as if there are no problems at all. he wanted to make love to her even during the night she got drunk from his brother's engagement party.

but he just couldn't, he doesn't want to. the moment she mentioned his name...

"Phai... do you think i have to give up on him this time?...", she said while her eyes close. he wonder if she could feel his presence that's why she called him. he just look at her, he doesn't know how to answer her. he covers thee blanket to her body and her hand wrapped onto his nape. she opens her eyes.

"you're not going kiss me, right?"

"no..."

"why?"

"because we are both drunk, especially you... needed to get rest now", he caresses her face and he was about to go Ying still couldn't let him go as she caught his hand. "Phai... can you stay here with me for awhile? i just want somebody next to me..."

he don't know what's wrong her, but he grants her request. he stayed her for awhile, in the end he couldn't sleep and he just remained himself all by next to her. Ying later, turns around secured herself to him, she rested her head on his chest.

"it was very foolish to marry you in the first place... but i'll consider it by loving you", he found her talking again. no he even wonder if she was asleep or not.

"you're not broken. if you try to see it, im the one you married. you agreed... i'll give you everything but at least try to learn how to love me...", and he just found himself responding to what she just said. he brushing her hair with his fingers and soon he finds it comfortable with what their position look on the bed.

they find themselves listening to each other's calling. he look at her and she find herself still awake and heard what he said.

Phaibun kissed her forehead, she closed her eyes to feel it. down to her nose... he stopped and waited for her to open her eyes, as soon as she opens... he kiss her lips this time. slowly as he doesn't want to act so aggressive on her. he would treat her like a fragile one. he doesn't want to do anything so fast...

he wanted to do it in a right way, like a gentleman who doesn't want their lady to be hurt. unconsciously, she gave up herself to him... she just go with the flow. she would like to feel how women gives up themselves to their man. she didn't think anymore if Phaibun's the right one she needed to give up herself to him, she just follow to his actions. he was kissing her and she was kissing him back.

she love how the way he kisses her. she didn't want to miss this kind of feeling she gets from him. the feeling she felt when he kissed her during the wedding, then in rain... and now, this time she feels it again. it felt like this feeling makes her somewhat special. she was special to him.

*WILLING SCENE*

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.::Foolish Heart::.

the next day, Ying woke up and found herself being naked. she could still feel her hangover and the man she slept with wasn't there anymore. however, he left a note together with a medicine on top of the side table:

"here's your medicine for hangover
and i prepared a breakfast for you already..."


she found herself smiling while reading the note he left for her, but she asked herself clearly why was she's smiling anyway? what happened to her and Phaibun last night was clearly understood that she wanted it and gave up herself to him.

"NO... NO... NO...", she said. she gets up from the bed and saw the stain and her thighs was still aching. she didn't want to imagine what happened last night. she can't hardly remember what she did... or what he did. the only she can remember is that he was beside her, caressing her.

she covered her body with that blanket and as she gets out of the room. the whole pad was clean, she went to the kitchen and the first thing she saw is the dining table that filled with different dishes. she couldn't describe at all how she felt. tons of questions popped inside her head. is he trying to be sweet now after what happened last night? why he did trouble himself to do all this stuff? she just don't know what to think anymore.

but one thing's clear for her is that what happened last night is not what supposed to happen. then she heard the doorbell, she hurriedly went to the monitor beside the door if who was that. it's Daeng, Simla and Tida outside.

she went back to her room and get dress right away. she then gets back and opens the door.

Daeng: girl, what happened to you? we have a meeting awhile ago.
Ying: meeting?
Simla: about the show.
Tida: what happened to you? you were not even answering your phone.
Ying: i... uh... i was asleep.
Daeng: well, that's something new... usually you're always on time and now your late.
Simla: the fact that you can't be late because this is your first show.
Ying: i'll go get dress then-
Tida: nevermind. the meeting's done and we are here to pass this script for the show.
Daeng: and... wait... what's that smell?
Ying: im sorry- last night-
Daeng: oh! you did prepare a breakfast for us?
Ying: uh... (she turn around and look at the dining table.) uh... yeah... come in. well, let's just discuss here about the show at the same time.
Tida: good idea... let's go eat first.


her friends got inside and went straight to the dining. Ying didn't expect her friends would visit her, she's not planning to tell them what happened to her last night. her friends grabbed some stuff they thought she prepared for them, she slight frown as that breakfast was prepared just for her only... and here are her friends, eating them. before nothing's left for her, she decided to join and grab some.

Daeng: anyways, Sumalee had her script already. she actually made this script because she doesn't like my script.
Tida: oh, please... if we start to discuss this show, can we not start with her name? (Ying reads the script.)
Ying: why? i think the script is nice...
Simla: that's what i told them too...
Daeng: no... why she would steal my show... i made that script for how many nights and Kaew approved it, but she's the only one who doesn't like it.
Tida: i told you... she's a bitch.
Ying: Tida...
Tida: what? im just telling the truth. soon she will get you two...
Simla: i think she's nice to me.
Tida: that's because you're holding the finances.
Simla: of course not. anyways, this weekend... Sumalee and i will go shopping around, there's someone she also would like to introduce to me. guess who?
Daeng: im not interested...
Simla: Luk Veerapol... (she smiled to the highest level.)
Daeng: no way... the im super fan of him!!! i watched all his dramas... im always wishing he would choose us for modeling agency... too bad he's contracted with someone else. girl, i wanna go hangout with you. i wanna meet him too!
Tida: Da! i thought you're with now. that girl destroyed your script.
Daeng: im not going to meet her anyway. it's Luk! Luk! (Ying and Simla started to laugh because Daeng's being desperate now.)
Tida: anyways, so what if you're gonna meet this Luk guy that im-not-so-fan of him.
Daeng: oh, c'mon... why don't you just say that you're a man-hater.
Simla: Sumalee told me that Luk just ended his contract with his previous agency and she's inviting him to choose our agency.
Daeng: oh, my... Simla, you just made me excited-
Tida: okay... let's move on to the next topic. this is not about Luk Veerapol... this is about the evil girl Sumalee.
Ying: Tida, stop it already... Sumalee maybe just wanted the best for our agency. besides her experience in the States has nothing compared to us.
Tida: excuse me? can you repeat that? i've worked in Paris before... i've never encountered such an unprofessional model before in my life. only her. and in case you're not aware of Sumalee's past-
Daeng: Tida, no!!!
Tida: why? Ying has the right to know...
Daeng: but i think, its not the time for her to know yet. you also have no right to tell that, let Phaibun tell the truth.
Ying: what 'truth'? what does Phaibun to do with Sumalee?
Simla: i will tell... Sumalee is Phaibun's ex-girlfriend.
Tida: correction... ex-fiance.
Ying: what?


Daeng gave up since Simla told Ying already and Tida even continued. Ying didn't expect to hear this, Tida even told the whole story to her about Phaibun and Sumalee. she dont know if the story makes her feel relief, even if she's not in love with Phaibun... what about what happened to them last night?

though Phaibun's aware that she does love his brother, why this news makes her feel so unsure about something? does that mean if he's willing to help her to hooked up with Thor, does that mean she's going to help him back with Sumalee?

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.::Foolish Heart Instrumental::.

Phaibun's all alone to his office and his friend Pet finally came. he's done with his work and so was his friend who came just to see him. Pet noticed that his friend has been smiling all by himself.

Pet: is there anything you wanna tell me? (but Phaibun just looked at him smiling. he's just so in the mood.) your smile tells me that something happened last night.
Phaibun: no... nothing happened. (he lied.)
Pet: oh, c'mon... tell me now. you got scored?
Phaibun: Pet, stop it... she's not game that you want play with and aiming for a score.
Pet: they say love is like a game.... you're aiming for her heart to win. you love her?
Phaibun: well, of course... she's my wife.
Pet: but let me guess... you just realized that? you didn't realize that when you married her.
Phaibun: i married her because i love her... she's the one who doesn't realize that yet. but i think last night... she did.
Pet: really? and you think she's finally over with Thor?
Phaibun: that's what she said last night. she gave up on him already. now, i have a chance to show mine...
Pet: show what?
Phaibun: that i love her...
Pet: you're now a lover boy again? i just want to be sure because Sumalee's back-
Phaibun: stopped mentioning her name.
Pet: see... that's what you called 'no closure'.
Phaibun: what do you mean?
Pet: you and Sumalee never had a closure even if you two broke up. that means you haven't broke up.
Phaibun: what if i say with Ying, i'll be able to move on? it doesn't mean i have to talk to that woman just to have closure. she's the one whose at fault. for what happened between us... im not guilty on anything. do you understand now? will you stop mentioning her name infront of me from now on?


"okay... you got what you ask for. i wont say her name ever again. promise!", Pet said. for how many times Phaibun think this over and he's sure that he have move on already. he doesn't need any closure with Sumalee anymore. what he just want in his life, is Ying... no one else.

that made him realize after what happened last night.